I'm totally speechless when I saw your blog it was awesome ! after what we've been through, it felt like we were friends since small and it will last forever ! Trust me, miss you Iszraf. can't wait for you to be back here like we used to be with Appleofmyeyes ! lovecha !
“Wishing you all have a very best Christmas this year”
been catched up with old friends where I think its good for myself. kinda freezing tonight but still I'm waiting for my cigarette and I think I should wish you guys again, Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday to few friends of mine.
Anyone got Gossip Girls Season 3 Episode 11 and so on ?
Please do let me know ok. Damn, I'm so into Blair and Chuck. Well, don't forget about Nate and Dan coz they're also killing me =) You know you love me XOXO gossip girls. ;p
and problems. Currently on holiday, too many things happened to me but thanks, it made me a stronger person. Sleep, facebooking, EAT are my activities at home, what else to do lah kan. Try to find myself back, try to be near to our Creator. I've been too far lately, so I think it is the right time for me to back to basic. Getting older made me a matured person where I always think about my future.
haha watever it is, I started to play Ragnarok Online back ! ahaha damn I miss my old times playing games with friends less problem! haha.
This is our loveable logo from now on =) Me, Syafnida, Rubern and Saadiah well, Sally's stick man got 2 cute boobies it was rubern's idea. we saw this logo at google, while we're doing our task in boring Coco class hahaha ILY <3
I was planning to go somewhere, where I can have a peace of mind. First came up to my mind, was beach ! Just perfect! The breeze is good to cure my very-tangled mind. I was too busy till I didn't have enough rest.
Pangkor ? Tioman ? Redang ? still in consideration. I'm thinking to invite few friends to come along. but the most important, is him. I wanted to clean the mess with him. Vacation could be the perfect idea !
Everyone, let's go! btw I really missed Syaf, Sally and loveable husbie, Rubern haha ILY guys =)
Cant wait for Mama's Birthday 200909 same date on Feeco's mum birthday too well it falls on the date where all the muslim celebrate it HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI =) love you Mama.
Damn !! schedule class super duper packed oke I was fucking busy till don hv time to update my blog. owh btw i wanna wish happy belated birthday to the Twinnie,Feeco,Imran&Hfzh =) tua dah korang kan hah
It's now ramadhan and Raya is coming soon !! YEAH tapi cuti 1 week je kot. dulu time skola, best je cuti lame lame haha. anyway Selamat BerPuasa guys !!
U guys have watched Heart before isnt ? I didn't expect, after all these years pickin up the pieces, then putting my heart back together after separating from the loved one made me such a weaker person. OBVIOUSLY!! cz when i did watched this movie again, i was haunted by guilty and sadness tahap dewa & the result was Im crying.
I don't know how to handle it. I don't know how to prevent it. I don't know how am i goin to survive. I don't know how am i goin to live without you. I don't know.
Lately, i've been watching old movies and tv series I dont knw why, but it such a good thing to do to fill up my leisure time since now i'm on semester break!! Yeay but it's going to be over soon, about less than 2 weeks
Gosh Meteor Garden was my most fav tv series
I'm dying to watch it again!! I hv to download it back bcz ade org pinjam dulu cd die tapi x pulang kan!!
well, F4 kan were the main characters in Meteor Garden haha semua hot kan ? especially Jerry and Vic haha
pretend like u're never exists in this world wasn't a good idea. the more u try to forget the harder it will be. true enough isnt ? well i've spoke with a guy where i found out his advises were actually working on me.
I would say that since i tried to forget him I've never give a break to my own self. Last few months, I made myself busy with all those assignmnt stuffs and it stays the same. then I tried to cool myself down, took a deep breath pray to ALLAH, and lastly I am sort of found the peaceful of mind last weekend at my own HOME. being with mama is the best cure of mine.
1 thing that i've learned, sometimes we think that we need families and friends to support us but do u realize that sometimes u need time or a break for your own self ? think about it.
why can't I just stop playing Dota ? Mother F lah haha 24/7 nak main game je since becoming "Mr Lonely" hahaoke lah gtg dota time !!Att jgn marah oke laki ko ponsuke main dota oke -_-' haha
its been a while i hvnt wrote anything yela rumah sewa xde streamyx =( broadband kene block cz x baya ahaha well i've just finished my examination gosh pengajian malaysia sucks!! haha but over all oke lah =) well i got 54/60 for my digital com carry marks
x saba nak tggu 30 august kan botak kan =) haha well nnt lah update blog nie nak siap2 lunch ngn family gtg tata =)
alaa acaf dh msk UIA pasnie jarang dh hangout2 haih but its oke lah, i wish u all the best oke !!! study well jd lawyer nnt if ape2 bole suh acaf je handle case pdot k. I MISSSS YOOUUU SOO MUCHHH
I don't know where start or where to stop cz it will never end unless you've changed !! this particular person who try to act like he is soo cool n try to snatch all the girl's hearts out there but yeah this time, GOTCHA !! pls la man, don't be like SOO-womanizer cz it doesn't suits u at ALL !! owh gosh what else I can say u just keep on repeating the same mistake again and again !! Fuck dowh ko nie. Idk what should i call you now cz you're acting like somebody else like you're totally stranger to me =( please go back to basic and think think think about people around you that actually care about you. or you're jz too stupid and can't think about it whatever it is, I do miss the OLD you but it will never be the same. coz you've broke my little fragile HEART. Fullstop.
Too much drama. It's like stupid dumb jokes and only assholes play that jokes. We're done. You go your way and I will go mine. to People, talk as much as you can about me. Like I give a damn =) To you, sorry for being rude.
to all mothers living in this world Nothing can replace you Your ways are too perfect You completed my daily life You're my life, you're my hopes. I need you like water, like breath, like rain. All I need is you.
I don't know why I'm fuckin excited about this coming raya. ye lah first of all dapat minta maaf dgn mama ayah n family. then i can meet my friends where I rarely see lately coz of buzy-ness hahaha =) gosh anyway guys, ATTENTION !!
ALL OF YOU GUYS ARE INVITED TO MY HOUSE ON HARI RAYA.
I didn't go anywhere today I don't even know where to go to haish the emptiness is slowly taking over me and I don't know how to win over myself back
Yes I shouldn't think like this but I can't stop from doing it You're supposed to be my friend where I put my trust on but your're turning into a different person where I don't even know you at all
I will try to regain what I've lost but I'll never forget you. NEVER EVER. you're always gonna be the one I never someone like you and I don't know why people didn't realized that you're just too good and yet I've already realized it youu wasn't for me
I never thought that she could be that evil oke ? we were like BFF gile babi and she always told me that "boyfriend come and go, friends stay forever" take note oke guys !!!! but then does she really knw the exact meaning ape yang die ckp ? I dont think so =(
but FYI, if u're planning to use him as a temporary BF just to wait for someone else to come back, then i'll make sure that u will never b happy ok ?
how come u made a statement like "u r in love with A, but u will definitely will choose B" that is totally FUCK UP oke syg ? Wake up!! u r not in fairy tale story dear this is reality !! people with feeling are exist in this world and not to be played around like voodoo dolls
I just wana to make it clear in public there is nothing between us and goddamnit trust ur own FRIEND especially YOUR BOYFRIEND oke ?
I was blinded by your words All those lies I kept inside me Those promises you asked me to hold on but now there's nothing left All my tears, they keep running down my face, how could you forget about me?
I wish we could start all over again from the moment we met but I think it is not worth it because now I realized that you are just unworthy but I'll cherish every moments we had together
Yeah I miss you so much but you are with her now so I won't bother you guys just so you know I still love you like I did before
I just dont know how to handle it I just dont know how to face it I just dont know how to think rationally I just dont know how to let anyone else in I just dont know why I love you so much I just dont know why you do this to me I just dont know what to do I just dont know where should I start I just dont know where should I stop I just dont know when its all going to end
This April was totally wicked !! lot of things happened and gosh Im gonna miss all those moments
the latest one was actually today but early in the morning I met Ruzaini or juz call him Zynie
Frankly speaking, he's cute dowh but then plus polite and nice and People, I just LOVE making friends oke ? haha
and yet I met Amy ( Sara's bf ) we talked about that moron yg mengaku die bf Sara (bodo kan gile x malu) chat chat untill 530 whoah then sume blk cz dah ngantok plus Zynie keje today at 12 =)
let me introduce you friend of mine where we just knew about less than 2 months he's originally from Sg Petani, Kedah but currently stay at Shah Alam I got his passport pic and then I just snapped it cz saje saje =) haha u can just called him
FEECO poyo bajet ko hensem ? =p seriously he's a nice guy and im lucky that i had a chance to get to know him haha he looks like Ameer abit dowh but no matter wat happened we're gonna make it kan pakcik ? =p nie pic die lah i just put it randomly
Life sometimes isn't that fair We might have to let go of people that we love the most and it is soPAINFUL till you actually think that what life is all about ? Life sometimes can be wonderful but in a blink of eyes it also can turned out into something that we didn't expect it to happen well, that is LIFE
Seeing someone that we love so much with someone that we are closed was totally fucked up and it's not healthy well, obviously you can't hide those unwanted feeling but then you try to fake it because maybe you can't afford of losing the loves one or maybe one of them is your bestfriend
You try your very best just to comfort them but then it seems like they are actually don't even care about you and the worst part of it is they said they love you, FRIEND and OBVIOUSLY they don't
Life life life well, life is just a lie eventhough you said that you're able to handle it but deep inside your heart says that "no dear, you can't accept it" yeah, you know that same sex love is not a normal thing but the thing is just put some respect on it because it is people's choice of what they want to be and they also have feeling and yet still want to be loved by someone
If you're happy with her now then just go on and don't let someone else take her from you eventhough the decision is actually hurt me so much but it is your decision what I can do is now picking up the pieces of my heart that you broke it and putting it back together and try to get over you
Past just made us stronger It's depend on us How we manage to handle it ? How we're gonna face the future without YOU? But DO THINK ABOUT OTHERS FEELING TOO Don't just simply take an easiest way Coz it won't help you at all Well basically Im talking through out my experiences We're gonna get a better one later on TRUST ME OKE !!
Well this time it is more likely ADVICES TO THOSEWHO TRY TO FORGET SOMEONE
Me P D O T, A D Y, D A N N
STEP TO FORWARD
Well obviously, 1st thing you must do is Set your mind that the person is just not meant to be together with you and someday you will get a better one isnt ? =)
then try to ignore anything that reminds you of him/her but don't hate it coz it will make you miss them more so just act like you don't even care well frankly speaking I love to cry after I've become plastic man well pdot kan who cares ? =)
well sometimes song also fucked up oke merosakkan mood dikala senja menjelma haha bodoh je kan ? tengah mood oke but then lagu sedih keluar mesti you was like " WTF lah lagu nie !!" isnt? so try to feed yourself with songs that only helps you to get through all this unnessesary mess oke dear?
I know it is so hard to just walk away coz to leave something that we love isn't the easist thing to do then choose an option where you don't have to stay away from him/her, eventhough it's killing you but it's actually will make you stronger babeh !!
Recomended Movie that you should go for is
Recommended Song you should listen is
Leann Rimes - Life Goes On
So basically, there are plenty of ways of reducing your stress here baby. I'm just try to get over you but then I can't but but, it doesn't mean that I'm not trying oke ahaha btw gi mati lah kau weyh=)
Nk pi mandi sat oke TC guys hope you'll enjoy it !! =)
